"i can see that you're not beside me."

i miss thursday. cider and sunshine and picnics on the common and frisbee and friends and i miss swimming in the sea because it was cold and the cold felt good with my friends.

i do not miss making plans that will never happen. i am already starting to miss everyone and i haven't left yet. i don't know if i will leave.
i sort of hope so but i sort of hope not.
i don't knowwww.